Hole in my soul; Crap in my mind

What do you do when you have lost your soul; when you lose your sense of purpose, your reason for existance...

Do you shut out all emotions and tactlessly push through your daily chores or do you try to re-orient yourself; try to find the silver lining... maybe you could just smile and forget everything that ever happened.. let a different personality take control...

Have you ever played a computer game where you could save before a hard mission and replay the level till you get it right... Every time you mess up all u need to do is press Ctrl+Q and then Ctrl+L... If time is the fourth dimension, then why cant we rewind... But given the choice would you rather rewind, or fast-forward... Do you really want to change who you are, who you have become... or would you much rather get it over with... Skip to the end of the book... and take comfort in reading:

"The End!"