The anthem of the ugly youth

(part II - pls read part I below prior to this)

You say u love me
U say u do
Despite my missing tooth

But, I sneak a peak
At your pimply cheek
And despite my brain cells
That understand what a lush natural habitat those oily pores on your greasy skin provides
A myriad of bacterium,

I recoil at the thought of touching it
Resent the thought of kissing it
Despise the thought of cuddling it

Despite my own parched dermis
with tiny grey splotches of ringworms

All I can see is that purple scab
Where your shoe grazes the heel

I wrinkle my nostrils
at your rustic bus smell
while you pledge your love
so deep and true..

Can’t you see
That I am blinded
By the illusion of that perfect man
With his exfoliated skin…..

All I can see is
Your throbbing neck mole
While my spirit floats away
In his steroid pumped arms

I don’t understand
What is it with me
They say listen to your heart
Cos the brain aint that smart

Well my brain knows that you’re the “real-one”
With your slight hunch and protruding jelly belly..
Who’ll accept me with my bulbous thighs…

But like a moth to the fire
I am attracted to his shimmering flesh
titillating my finger tips with the slickness of his body wax

I feel so torn.. I feel so confused
If only my “spec” was not modelled after those
Greek gods carved from milky stones
Who waltz with their hot bums in tight pants on my TV

Then I might have had the power to see
Through this charade of “beauty that’s skin deep”
But.. but… we are creatures of the flesh
Running behind momentary gratification

A feast to the eyes,
An arresting aroma to the nose
A tantalising touch to the skin..
This instant gratification…

Shrouds the need for something deeper…
I am sorry my deep love….

But I am human..
A creature of the flesh
That thrives on sensual stimulations
To create that momentary high

I am too young to let my brain take over
So let me run with my heart
Behind that mirage
Of a perfect cool oasis
That will quench my thirst..