The Ultimate Answer

This is where it ends.
The questions that keep us awake at night, the questions that spark off hours of debates and monolouges. We've all been there, the meaning of life, the purpose of existance, rationalization of a bittersweet heart break, the absolute and rerlative measures of love, time and friendship.
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Rediscovering an answer as old as conciousness itself, expressed over and over in many forms, but something that strikes you like a hammer blow to the chest when you are enthralled with life itself, not to be forgotten, unless intentionally.
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Not that there is no answer, but a relative one perhaps unique to each individual who ever walked,
but the ultimate answer has to address the cause and not the symptoms.
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That sometimes, you just have to stop questioning!
Because... because it all makes sense the moment the question goes away...
It is a good thought to end on, it is my good bye!

The eternal waltz

flakes of shimmering glass
etching deep grooves in ,my heart...
the thick blood oozes out
and trickles down ever soo slowly

I gasp for breath
as the paleness spreads through my being

I stretch my bony fingers
with dead white nails
and raspy yellow skin

i reach out...
with all the force that is left in me
i try to touch him....
but he evades me

the ends of his
silk shirt
whisps past me..
blowing a cold air
of rejection

I watch his shaddow
as it waltzes away in her arms.
the dim candle light
magnifying each step.....

i watch........
my heart is already frozen
the fine shrapnnels of my broken glassy dream
are surging through my veins

ahh. a jagged edge
just logged itself
in the corners of my eyes
cutting my tear ducts
as my derelict soul
sinks through the floor cracks...

so cry for me...............

throwing the dice

You weigh the risks
you throw the dice
to win or loose
you can't decide

yet if a 'soul mate'
is the soul's recognition of its counterpart
that missing piece that soo harmniously fits in
why should love be a win/loose?

isn't it win-win
the greater good
resulting in a sum that is greater than the parts that make the whole?
yet.. all around you

you see mismatch
the suboptimal solution
the divine pairing
all gone wrong

its never "picture perfect"
yet, its not perfection you seek
in its absolute sense
yet harmony and balance
a synchronised rythm
for the song of life

without jagged edges
that rip the soul
and leave unhealable wounds..

yet some throw the dice
not knowing
or without wanting to know

trapped in a deception
sustained by their own stubbornness
mistaken for hope

that blinds their eyes
and hardens their skulls
making them hit their heads again and again
against a stone cold wall

that will not budge
that does not feel
because they don't understand?
it is on the other side of the wall
that the moisture of life has seeped in
and carved the smooth groves
in which the roots have found their foot hold
and beautiful blossoms blume

throwing the dice
is not enough
it must be in your fate
to win........